After Christmas 2010

Hello my darling Hayden. As I told you I will update you on how Christmas day was 2010. In spite of everything it wasn't to bad, you and your mum and dad came over and your aunty Jess was here with her partner.We had many presents for you , and at first you were real quiet and not sure of things, but you often did this (quiet at first ) and as you relaxed you start to enjoy your self, I have my own theory to why you did this but that is not important at the moment. You and your mum and dad came over the next day and staid the night and this is the first time I have seen just how much you have grown up as you plaid so beautifully and rode your three wheeler bike we just bought you ,it was so amazing and you were so so happy. The rest is a history .I love you my baby my Hayden Lee with all of my heart for ever and ever, I hope you always do well and you will never be controlled by anyone and you will be free to be the beautiful you that I can see in your spirit as a young man. When you read this please look at your life and ask your self am I totally free and confident to be me and not worry about anything anyone says and if you feel in anyway that you are not free no mater from what , please find out why and free your self.

My darling the joy you brought in to my life I can not describe and the way that you love to be with me and grandad is just magic, the way you put your little hand out for us to hold and walk around with you is just heart melting, my baby boy we loved every minute of it, there was nothing that grandad and I would have rather done than spend time with you. Right at this time of your life you are just so full of questions about everything so you would just grab our hand and go around and point to everything and ask the question ; WHATS THAT and on and on to different things . Agh and you just loved lights at this stage of your life , so for Christmas we put as many lights up as we could ( JUST FOR YOU ) so your little eyes can see and be amazed.   Hayden Hayden Lee , some would say that me especially was to obsessed  with you , if I was its because I totally was if you call it obsession I just loved you so much and loved being with you and seeing you grow and help you learn and be there when ever I was needed. The joy a grandchild brings is just unreal but sometimes that gets taken away for one reason or another.

Hayden lee Nothing is more precious then watching your face light up when you play with us.

We love you our baby Hayden Lee.

Family is who we look to when we need help. We expect our parents to raise us, our grandparents to love us, and our brothers and sisters to always be there for us when the chips are down. They are our blood and we depend on that connection. When a family member doesn't live up to our expectations we feel abandoned. When a parent, grandparent or older brother or sister puts their needs in front of our own, we feel abandoned and alone. In such a case, we are likely to feel sad, alone and angry.Life is full of sunrises Hayden and you just don't know where the disappointment will come from so learn how to rely on your own abilities for everything and what you get from friends and family is an extra blessing but not your life recourse.

Hayden we will take you to dreamworld soon can not wait for that. ( Your first time )

Take care my darling my little man.
I love you Hayden Lee.