Day Befor Christmas

My dearest grandson Hayden Lee
A day before Christmas and I was so looking forewords to it , we bought you lots of toys and you favoured one that you didn’t want to part from at the shopping centre when grandad and I took you shopping to see what you will go for mostly. 

Hayden I am finding it a little hard to write to you today as I feel so worn out from the constant fight on my hands to be able to be a part of your life.  I will just say this today and let you know what my wish is and I hope that happens for me and if it doesn’t I hope you get to read this and know just how much I loved you and how much I wanted to be a part your life . I wish that I would still be around when you are big enough or old enough so we can talk and so that you would be able to get to know me and to make up your own mind about me. My darling grandson Hayden  my heart bleeds when I think of you and the possibility that I may not be around so you can get to know me and perhaps others will tell you about me and you form the wrong impression of me my little darling my Hayden Lee. If I happen not to be here, I would like you to find your aunty Jessica and ask her all about me, she will tell you, she is a lovely person and a very honest one and very devoted to her family. 

My baby boy still today is Friday the 24th December 2010 a day before Christmas and I will get to see you tomorrow, I hope and pray that we will all have a great day and then I will write again to let you know how it was. 

I love you forever and ever