Hello again my darling Hayden

I haven’t been writing on regular bases, so many things happened in the mean time.I tried with all my mite to get our family to interact and to have some degree of functionality.

I think that to some degree I have achieved that but it’s not as I would have hoped for my little man.
One day you will know what I meant by this.

Every day I still wake up with you on my mind and what you are doing and how you are coping with so many changes in your life.

I pray to God every day and every moment that he will watch over you and protect you and shelter you from any damage or any confusion that you may experience in your little life as you are growing up and learn about this big new world you are in.

My darling you came over this weekend and grandad and I just enjoyed you so much, you plaid so beautifully and did a grandad dance with grandad and he just loved it so much as he loves you so much also.

You stayd the night (30/10/2010) and we got up early in the morning, had breakfast and took you for a drive because you rely love granddads big car, you can see everything as you are sitting in the middle and up high in your baby sit, I always sit in the back with you also and we talk all the way, well we talk baby talk and sing baby songs.

Then We went to bunnings and there I took you to a playground and you loved it coz you got to go on a big children’s slide and all the bigger children tied to make friends with you and talk to you but they didn’t realise that you are still a baby( ha ha ).

The times grandad and I have with you are so special and every moment counts as every moment with you is treasured and pressures, every time you say a new word or do a new thing it is so important to us and we love to see it. Grandad and I have special language that we talk to each other when we talk about you and its one with such fun and cute ways and so much loving and in our conversation we say gwany to each other as if you are saying it.

I LOVE YOU my grandson my HAYDEN LEE with all my heart. I love your beautiful eyes and your sideways cheeky smile when you smile at me. I love your little legs that pip from underneath the long shorts you mother puts you in.

I know it will be a long time until you can read this or even understand what I am telling you but I know one day you will.

Darling please always remember this; resist negative thinking, which includes jealousy, hate and discontent, they just make you restless and unhappy and contribute to a cycle of unhappiness around you. Remember that your choices will create your successes and your failures. So consider all the pathways ahead, and decide which ones to follow. Then believe in yourself, get up, and get going, most important of all: never give up on yourself. The person that ends up a winner is the one who resolves to win. Give life everything you've got, and life will give its best back to you.

It seems like another life when I read stories to your mother and her younger sister and sing them lullabies. I can’t wait to read you stories and sing bedtime songs to you. We’ll sing, read, paint and go to the park. At the park, we’ll run around and go on slides and take walks, that we already do but only short ones as you are only 15 months old and you get so tied fast. And when we return home, tired, I will serve your favorite delicacies. Right now I don’t know which ones but I will find out soon enough.

My grandson my Hayden Lee you have brought such miracle thing in my life and your granddads that we never knew that another child can bring apart from your mother and your unties. Baby boy our joy our miracle.

My cherished grandson I will try to write as often as I can and I hope that my letters and notes will not somehow be lost and you never read any of my words to you.

I love you my grandson my Hayden Lee forever.

You grandma.